Saturday, January 24, 2015

Healthy Hair!

On a happier note... I decided to help my hair out a little. My hair takes a ridiculously long amount of time to grow...and when it does grow, I get split ends almost immediately. Boo. SO in effort to grow some luscious locks, I'm going to see how long I can go without using little to no heat, and no teasing either. I also want to get hooked up with some good vitamins for hair. I know biotin is a huge one. Do you guys have any other suggestions? :)  

Friday, January 23, 2015

Putting on a Mask

I've realized the last few years in dealing with depression, anxiety, and now Lyme Disease and Hypothyroidism, sometimes you need to be fake and pretend. I've had so many times where I was hanging out with friends or at a church function and I was on the verge of breaking down mentally, or I felt like I was going to black out and someone would come up to me and say, " why aren't you smiling!? You look depressed!" Uhm. I am depressed? I know these are always well intended comments and are only said to get you talking. But honestly, none of us will never know what someone is going through- so it's good to be a little conscious of that.

Instead of breaking down and admitting I am depressed or am in serious physical pain, I always just giggle and give them the smile they desperately need.

A lot of people have also said to me, or to my family that they don't understand how I'm sick because I always look so healthy and I take good care of myself. To be honest, I'm kind of glad they don't realize the extent of what happens when you have these illnesses- it makes it easier to hide and not talk about. Even the closest of friends could never know what someone is going through unless they ask and are there for a panic attack or watch the color drain out of your face and see your hands start to shake as your body covers itself in sweat.

I've always told my self to not share any of this and to quietly sneak out when these symptoms start to arise. Someone will be having a conversation with me and in my head I hear nothing they're saying- I smile and nod, while thinking to myself to grab the chair for support and steady my breathing. But this really isn't fair to myself. I wish I would have learned this earlier..But if you are on the verge of a panic attack, or are thinking you're about to faint, you should sit down! You shouldn't force yourself to appear like everything is perfect.

A friend said this to me the other day who is very familiar with these illnesses. She said "If you had cancer people would be lining up at your door asking how you are doing and bringing you food, but you have an illness that no one wants to believe exists." It makes them uncomfortable. So me and just about every one else who struggles will do so silently. I'm thankful for these illnesses because I now know to watch out for those who may be struggling and to never force any thing on someone. And I can understand what others are going through..That at least I am thankful for...


I've struggled with how honest I want to be in this blog. Besides the beauty and fashion posts, most of what I share is very personal and I would probably be too embarrassed to tell any one in person! But I want to continue the mindset that each of us has a unique story and testimony to share. I think it would be selfish of me to keep my story all to myself and never use it to help or relate to others...

So with that being said...I'm going to dive in deep and share with you all. Last week was pretty rough. Even on my really bad days I always have hope that some day, some doctor will be able to help me. They will figure out whats wrong with me and why my body rejects everything good. And I'll finally be happy. But then I had this thought of "what if no body can fix me". I had never thought of that before...But what if I will always be this way? What if ten years from now I'm still plagued with anxiety and depression? What if I still can't do normal tasks like take a shower or clean my room?

I don't really have an uplifting note to end on. I'm just trying to be honest... Asking the Lord to revive my hope and trust in Him. And choosing not to be ashamed of my story- it may inspire.

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Makeup Review

Hello lovelies! I have some new product reviews for you and I'm also sharing my foundation/base product list.

I've been using the Revlon 24 hour Colorstay which is formulated for combination skin. I have it in the color 240 Medium Beige. I've been using it for probably...a year now? And I love it! Sometimes the tone seems a little pink/orange which is the only thing that I don't like, but otherwise it's wonderful. You don't need to apply very much to get good coverage, and it stays on very well! It's not very expensive either which is nice.

Next is the Covergirl Fresh Complexion Concealer. I've gone through a few bottles of this because I haven't had the guts to shell out for a pricey high end branded one. I get the lightest shade possible. The coverage isn't the best in the world; I find I have to re-apply throughout the day. But! I do love it for underneath my eyes and highlighting. I don't use it to cover up blemishes because it doesn't work well enough for that. But I like it okay for highlighting. :)

Lastly is a new product that I just started using this week! I've never used a BB cream before but I was really excited to see how they worked! So I bought the Maybelline Dream Pure BB Cream. I have it in the shade light/medium sheer tint. Now this little guy says it is a 8 In 1 Beauty Balm that clears acne,conceals imperfections, minimizes look of pores, reduces appearance of redness, adjusts to skin tone, enhances and clarifies, and has 0% oils and has a light weight feel. SO. Lots of miracle working going on here. I don't know that it is an all over miracle cream! But I truly love this! It makes my skin so smooth and soft, gets rid of redness, minimizes look of pores, and it has 2% Salicylic acid which makes me feel like it's doing good things. It gives great coverage and I a few times I've just popped this on with a touch of powder on top and that was all I needed for foundation! I definitely recommend. :)

Here's a pic of me with all the products I just mentioned :)

Saturday, January 3, 2015

Gorge Hair Tips

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* Watch this video! I just started watching her videos on youtube and she's so sweet and gorgeous! And she was wonderful healthy tips:) She also has some great healthy and gluten free recipes as well. Check her out!

Mascara Review

Officially the WORST mascara I have ever tried or bought....

This week I had a little makeup run to Walgreens. Before I went shopping I visited a few blogs to help me pick out which mascara I should buy. The last one I had was the Lorielle Butterfly Mascara which I did a blog post on. It worked pretty good and I liked it. The only thing I ended up really disliking was the awkward brush and the way it flaked off so easily! Midway through the day it seemed like half my mascara was gone. But it was nothing comparison to this one...Are you ready to know what it was that I was so excited but misguided to use?! It is the CoverGirl Flammed Out Max Volume Mascara. It looked so promising with it's big curved brush and its massive tube. The pretty red and pink flames beckoning me in, daring me to try. No. I was so disappointed this morning when I put it on!

First of all, the brush is weird. It is big and round on both ends and the middle is really thin. Which makes it hard to brush through your lashes. I don't know if the formula works well or not because I could hardly get it on my lashes. I brushed top and bottom over and over trying to apply the mascara but it seemed like nothing was going on..I ended up applying my old mascara over it and that helped for sure. But I would definitely recommend you Do Not get this one...Unless you want a seriously natural look.