Friday, January 23, 2015
I've struggled with how honest I want to be in this blog. Besides the beauty and fashion posts, most of what I share is very personal and I would probably be too embarrassed to tell any one in person! But I want to continue the mindset that each of us has a unique story and testimony to share. I think it would be selfish of me to keep my story all to myself and never use it to help or relate to others...
So with that being said...I'm going to dive in deep and share with you all. Last week was pretty rough. Even on my really bad days I always have hope that some day, some doctor will be able to help me. They will figure out whats wrong with me and why my body rejects everything good. And I'll finally be happy. But then I had this thought of "what if no body can fix me". I had never thought of that before...But what if I will always be this way? What if ten years from now I'm still plagued with anxiety and depression? What if I still can't do normal tasks like take a shower or clean my room?
I don't really have an uplifting note to end on. I'm just trying to be honest... Asking the Lord to revive my hope and trust in Him. And choosing not to be ashamed of my story- it may inspire.